Life goes on.

I cannot wait. Until I am eighteen.

I am moving out.

Moving far away.

Overseas please.

Anywhere that I can forget my past.

And never have to look back.

At anyone who has ever let me down.

I'm going to move.

And not tell anyone where I am going.

Because the sooner I can get on with life, forgetting the disappointments, the better.

Forget my family.

Except for my sister. She's the only thing that keeps me sane

Forget all the other complications and interruptions in my life.

Except Nia. She is amazing.The only one for me ( L )

She will always. come first in my eyes.

She's beautiful and reliable, and silly but wise. Shes amazing and she is everything to me.

Nothing can affect this. Nothing and no one.

But I'm over everyone else and putting in the effort to fix things, when they cant even be bothered to do the same.

I'm over wanting everything to be okay, because I know that it won't.

I'm over knowing that your friends are going to get hurt, but theirgonna keep going back for more.

I'm over being selfish, but thats the way its going to be. Take it or leave it.

I'm over fixing things, and then their broken again. It's not up to me anymore.

I'm so disappointed that the one person I thought I could trust, turned out to be the one that hurt me the most.

There is a point in your life when you get tired of trying to fix everything and make everyone happy. And when you finally decide to quit, it's not giving up. Its realizing you don’t need certain people and the bullshit they bring into your life.

Yes, I am a sheep.

Thought I would jump on the the 'I have learnt' bandwagon.

so WARNING. Thoughtful post ahead.



I have learnt I 'love to seldom and hate to often'. Doesn't mean I can change that.

I have learnt that there are certain words that you shouldn't call teachers.

I have learnt to talk to more people.. Nicely.

I have learnt studying pays off.

I have learnt that procrastinating is easy to be good at.

I have learnt that you can't really trust anyone.

I have learnt that the people who say they will never hurt you, hurt you the most.

I have learnt to sing like no one is listening and dance like no one is watching.

I have learnt that it's pretty easy to short circuit your friends house.

I have learnt that for me,death seems so far away, but for others, its closer than they know.

I have learnt not to judge people by their actions.

I have learnt that you shouldn't care what other people have to say.

I have learnt maths is a totally unnecessary subject.

I have learnt biology on the other hand is amazing.

I have learnt to just go for it.

I have learnt it's easier to say you will never do something, than actually not doing it.

I have learnt that love is really nothing.

I have learnt that seeing a councilor can totally play to your advantage.

I have learnt that things get hard, but thy can always get harder, and most suffer way more than I.

I have learnt that people never really want you until they cant have you.

I have learnt I don't really want something once I have it.

I have learnt that deep down. I'm scared. Everyone is scared.

And the one thing I hope I never forget.
Is to embrace the ones you love, accept their faults and to never let them go.

Cause once you do, they will never. Come back.

I'm not your part time friend.

We have taller buildings but shorter tempers,
wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints.
We spend more, but have less;
we buy more, but enjoy less.
We have bigger houses and smaller families,
more conveniences, but less time.
We have more degrees but less sense,
more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems,
more medicine, but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much,
spend too recklessly, laugh too little,
drive too fast, get too angry,
stay up too late, get up too tired,
read too little, watch TV too much.
We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values.
We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.

We've learned how to make a living, but not a life.
We've added years to life not life to years.
We've been all the way to the moon and back,
but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor.
We conquered outer space but not inner space.
We've done larger things, but not better things.

We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul.
We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice.
We write more, but learn less.
We plan more, but accomplish less.
We've learned to rush, but not to wait.
We build more computers to hold more information,
to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion,
big men and small character,
steep profits and shallow relationships.
These are the days of two incomes but more divorce,
fancier houses, but broken homes.
These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers,
throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies,
and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill.
It is a time when there is much in the showroom window
and nothing in the stockroom.

Okay. SO.
I quite love procrascination.
Or however you would like to spell it.
BUT.
It is quite the pain in the bottom.

Because.
My procrastination methods including eating and sleeeeping.
Worst things ever.
Like for example. In the last half an hour, I have eaten.
A PB&J sandwhich, migren noodles and two mini packets of malteasers.

Obeasity here I come!




bail.


I am actually quite sunburnted :( it hurts me.



Most epic day of my life yesterday.
At my cousins wedding
And there was a jukebox.
And there was all this old music playing
and everyone was dancing.
So i put dont trust me - 30h!3 on.
Everyone was bobbing there heads along cause they couldnt dance to it
then it said.
I'm a vegetarian and I'm not f***ing scared of him.
Everyones jaw dropped to the ground.

Hayyyy there felllow Internet dwellers..

So this week has been UBER terrible.
I feel that exams have consumed my whole life. In any spare time I may find
I end up studying anyway. This has honestly been myy life for the last week.

Wake up at five thirty, study, eat, school, learn, revise, eat, learn, revise some more, home, study,
Eat, study, crawl to bed at around eleven thirty.

FRICK! I bloody hate end of year exams. And you know what makes me super happy?
My brother borrowing my calculator and then leaving it at work. And then when I need it for study I don't have it.
Thats pretty excellent now isn't it.

It seems to me that everyone is getting blogs these dayy. Which oddly makes it less appealing
To me. Exceptt nia :) I love her.

But seriouslyyyyy.

Gawshh my eyes just want to sleeeeep. But only four/five days left
Of schooll yayyyy. I can sleep my life awayy and chillbang with me bestiesss :)

Ughh more from me laterrrr.
Love ya bitches in the trousers.

Today, I walked into my apartment and saw someone sitting on my couch, dressed as Megatron. I screamed for my boyfriend, who then came running out of the kitchen dressed as Optimus Prime, and threw Megatron to the ground. My boyfriend then came up to me and told me that he would fight decepticons for me any day. He then got down on one knee and proposed to me. I accepted. I don't know how I'm going to explain this proposal to my parents. MLIA.

My new hero;

Impressive.

"Last night I went on a date with a boy. I wasn't sure if it would be any fun because he's usually very uptight in school. He showed up at my door with a pirate hat on and a fuzzy neon green top hat for me. Instead of going to dinner and a movie he took me to Wal-Mart where we had a foam sword fight, tricycle races down the isles, and got ice-cream at Braum’s after. I think he’s a keeper. MLIA"

I love this website. And I want her boyfriend :)

EXPLOSIONS.

I am a; paramaniac.
Wiki says:

Noun
paramaniac (plural paramaniacs) 

1. A person suffering from paramania.

2. A person who is obsessed with comlaining; one who complains.

http://en.wiktionary.org/wiki/paramaniac check it bitchess.

HAI THEREEE

life really is amazing isn't it?

existance. is baffling. but it's beautiful.

 I am actually. Looking at my painting in art, in a positive light at this point in time. It is quite possible that I will finish it in the fourteen days I have left. Yayys for me :)

maybeee;

On a gayer note.

I glassed my leg :( it was terrible. Blood everywheree :) bet you woulda loved to see that baby.

I'll let you cool kids in on what happened. I unpacking the dishwasher (intensely) and i dropped a glass (with extreme force) and it GASHED open my leg, and there was blood everywhere. But. No one was home so I had to hike all the way to the hospital, where theY told me that the damage was really bad, and I was going to die if they didn't operate straight away. So they took me in, and they were operating on my leg, and they had to cut the 10cm x 5 cm shard of glass out of my leg. But they had some problems and had to use the electricall thing to prevent me from dying. 

If you really want to know what happened. Read on.

But if you totally believe me.  just skip down to the yellow writing. rriiigghhtttt now!

If you want to know, just read the high lighted bits.

BUT ANYWAYS.

DOUBLE ART TODAY WAS AMAZING. Well not really. I felt like jumping off a building approx. 76 times. BUT other than that. I got my sky finished :) 

 

JORDAN ROBERTS; is amazing.
He brings a smile to my faceeee :)

Dramaaa wasssss amazzzzinngggg :)
I am so very proud of each and everyone of the performers.
They did an amazing job.
Amazing amazing amazing.

I have decided.
People take other people.
Waaaaaaaaay to seriously.
Loooosen upppppp.
PLEASE :):):):):):)
BE HAPPPPPPPY.

mmmmmmmmm. easier said than done I suppose,
I love my bestfriends Paige and Nia.

I also love me other best friend; Caitlin.
We are going to get a job in the convent and grow old together.
Its a beautiful thing.
I love her.


Only she will get this :)

 :)

ANDY.

TO ANDY;

would you like some tea?

Maybe some prawns to go along with it?

You can eat it in the pool if you want..

In our little party of three; yes that is us.

I loved the night i had on friday. I love swimming. I love getting changed in the same room.

I love dancing on the side of the pool. I love hugging people when I'm wet.

I love introducing myself as andy. I love getting dropped off on the side of the road.

I love it especially when people think they are heaps tough and like daring.

But they don't know who their dealing with.

I love it when you show them up.

Not mentioning any names *cought*LUKEFUCKINGCOCKFACE*cough*.

I love speaking like a pom. And annoying your brother/boyfriend.

I love it. I love my friday nights.

And most of all. I love andy.

:)